This uncertainty is the number one reason we never pursue those big things on our bucket list.
No decision in life is guaranteed to have a positive outcome. We can act from the best of our knowledge, but cannot really control what happens in the end. This uncertainty is the number one reason we sacrifice our dreams for the familiarity of the expected.
For the past 5 years, I was living on cruise control. I was comfortable in my job, my apartment, my relationship. Indifference and inertia took over and I forgot I was in the driver’s seat. I had been talking about moving to Austin for years and finally realized it would never happen unless I forced it to. That day, I began preparing for the move. I was ready to push into this new phase. To shed the dust that had collected around me and open up to change, struggle and possibility. Even though it was many months before we set off, with that first step it became real.
It is important to confront the repercussions of pursuing our dreams. To be fully accountable for them. When I was younger, I would often do things because my parents, teachers and friends expected it. When it got tough, I felt resentful because I did not feel in control. I did not feel like I had deliberately chosen to be on this path.
This move was different. The voices inside were saying, “Do this now.” They were drowning out the fear of what I could not know and quietly cheering me on. I was leaving my hometown for the first time, saying goodbye to everything familiar and everyone I loved. But, I decided this would be best for me anyway. It was the first decision that was 100 percent my own and after all those years, I’m finally back in the driver’s seat. There have been bumps and detours along the way, but this is my journey and I know I’m headed in the right direction.