Before 30

Instead of reaching the highest point I would ever reach…I started over.

By the time this post publishes I will be 30 years old. There are many things I imagined having by this time. A happy family. A promising career. A degree of certainty about my place in this world. I don’t have any of those things yet, but here I am.

I used to see life as this straight line that moved higher up with each step. I convinced myself I was growing because my salary increased and I could afford better things than I had in the past. I clinged to material gains as progress, but the truth was I had been stagnating for years and was terrified to make a change. It was easier to plateau than to start over.

This year I decided to stop looking at my life as a profit chart. I left my hometown. I left my job of 6+ years. I started over. Instead of reaching the highest point I would ever reach at this age, I took my first steps in a new direction.

I’m learning that there are seasons for everything. A season for recuperating and tending to our wounds. A season for sitting still and reevaluating our course. A season for deep breaths and leaps of faith. What season is this? A season for bravery, for saying what you believe, for trusting your gut, for sacrificing material gains for spiritual ones, for being a better friend, and for remembering that life is made of cycles (not straight lines) and it’s never too late to begin again.

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14 comments

  1. ‘.., and for remembering that life is made of cycles (not straight lines) and it’s never too late to begin again.’

    🙂

    May the sacrifices this season bring you that which you seek (or hoped to find) in life the next season. And most of all, may this be your year! Happy 30th Maryn! I hope you had a wonderful day!

  2. First of all, happy belated birthday!!! Also, this reminds me of this Bible verse in Ecclesiastes 3 which I find to be so beautiful.

    There is a time for everything,
    and a season for every activity under the heavens:
    2 a time to be born and a time to die,
    a time to plant and a time to uproot,
    3 a time to kill and a time to heal,
    a time to tear down and a time to build,
    4 a time to weep and a time to laugh,
    a time to mourn and a time to dance,
    5 a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
    a time to embrace and a time to refrain from embracing,
    6 a time to search and a time to give up,
    a time to keep and a time to throw away,
    7 a time to tear and a time to mend,
    a time to be silent and a time to speak,
    8 a time to love and a time to hate,
    a time for war and a time for peace.

    Love + Light!

  3. Happy belated birthday! May this year (and years to come 😉 be filled with only what you’re passionate about. 🙂 Keep at it, Maryn! ❤

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